The Androgynous Vault is a blog (and sometimes vlog) about the lives of two androgynous girls in Brisbane. This blog offers a perspective of life through androgynous eyes.
Volume 23 - She's So Hard
Let's set the scene.
The Jezabels playing in the background.
My sister studying for her 3rd year of university.
Kick in reflection time.
I spent the night at my sister's. Yesterday it was "Australia Day and Triple J's hottest 100 countdown" (the best music countdown ever). I worked all day and had no plans for the evening...you should probably know that on Australia day you start drinking before midday, fire up the bbq and tune into Triple J. I got home and had a dilemma on my hands. I texted my little sister to see what she was up to. I headed over to her house for drinks and MTV (I had my first taste of Jersey Shore- VOMIT).
This morning as we were eating breakfast she asked me a question that used to and sometimes still does burn me up. She said "do you ever feel like you should have been a boy?". I thought for a minute and the answer was "I was confused between my sexual orientation and what society perceives to be a normal relationship". Growing up I had no idea about relationships, sexual orientation or gender disorders. I assumed that love was between man and woman and so if I was attracted to girls that means I need to be a boy. But I was very comfortable being a girl. I liked my body. I was in a battle thinking that in order to love another female I need to be a male. It wasn't until my late teens I realised that I can be me and love anyone I like. There is no gender in love. Love is that feeling you feel strongly for another person regardless of genders. This took me quite some time to work out.
I know this isn't about anything androgynous but it is a queer issue and I thought I'd discuss it. I hope that there are girls and boys out there who don't go to any extreme or hate themselves for not fitting into the "normal". What is normal anyway?
Did anyone else question their sexual orientation and confused it for gender disorder? I like to think I'm not the only one. I guess that's why I consider myself as androgynous.
Mayve if I was born a boy life would be easier. But I would never wish for that because I'd probably get bored. I wouldn't be who I am today and I'm very proud of the person I've become.
Don't forget to be awesome!
Comments? Questions? Anything?
- Volume One - The Introduction
- Volume Two - Gender Confusion
- Volume Three - Categories and Neatly Defined Boxes
- Volume Four - Tomato sauce, Assassinations and a woman Prime Minister
- Volume Five - Undergarments and Academic Tanned Skin
- Volume Six - Naked and Nakedness?
- Volume Seven - Prejudice and Pride
- Volume Eight - It Gets Better
- Volume Nine - It's a plane, it's a pirate, wait no it's just Moneth
- Volume Ten - Purple, Revel and Riot, This Just Out and lot's of androgyny in between
- Volume Eleven - Androgynous Clothing
- Volume Twelve - Finally...Here's MoneT aka Pirate
- Volume Thirteen - Beauty
- Volume 14: unisex toilets? let's discuss.
- Volume 15: The Recent UN Vote And It's Consequences To Us Androgynous Folk
- Volume 16: We Need You
- Volume 17: Bright lights and two spirit sexuality
- Volume 18: Tegan and Sara...confusing the general public...dumb questions.
- Volume 19: The Glamorous Kind
- Volume 20: Androgy on Holiday
- Volume 21: QLD Flood Crisis
- Volume 22: Androgyny on Holiday: Part 2
- Volume 23: She So Hard
- Volume 24: righto chaps! cup of tea then? Let's celebrate!